So...

I'm being a terrible procrastinator by coming in to update my profile, rather than work on the almost literally dozens of things I have in my to-do list right now. A lot of my time lately has been spent either working, or sleeping, or trying to plan a convention, or trying to find time in all of that to work on my own websites and personal fun projects. Life in general has also been a pretty severe drain on my creativity and productivity, which is really frustrating. Murphy has been kicking my ass six ways from Sunday this year.

A lot of it comes down to being out of the house almost 10 hours a day, 5 days a week, doing the often mind-numbingly dull task of writing online banking software at work (8 hour day, 1 hour lunch, and roughly half an hour of round-trip transit). I like my job, the people I work with are great, it pays fairly decently, and I'm not even remotely interested in trying to strike out to find something better given the state of the economy and the general lack of tech-sector jobs on this side of Washington State. I just wish I had more opportunities to be really creative at work. Unfortunately, online banking and financial software in general is pretty damn dull; the most creative part of my job is often integrating an online banking site into a new client's existing website design (or an old client's new website design created by some other company). Even the more creative stuff I do sometimes get to do is still really corporate-focused, so I can't get too crazy with designs and layouts.

Unfortunately, spending 40 hours a week working at a computer doing programming for other people has a serious impact on my desire to spend more time on the computer at home doing stuff for myself, and so I haven't been drawing much, I haven't been doing much Photoshop stuff, and I've gotten way behind on DPWR.net and some other creative projects I've had churning in my head for the past 2+ years.

I think after Mysterium is said and done next month, I'm going to take at least two weeks, if not a month or more, and only work on stuff I really want to do for myself when I'm not at work. I'm not going to worry about Mysterium 2010 or All Fur Fun, and I'm not going to take on any projects or requests from other people. I'm going to work on DPWR when I feel like it, and on other creative projects when I don't want to do web stuff. I might even get around to updating my Deviant ID, since that's like 5 years old now...

Anyway, pardon the rambling and the self-pity. I just felt like venting in a somewhat less conspicuous space than usual, and I'm tired enough that my brain isn't doing a very good job of filtering the emo.